Keeping it together

… while falling apart.

These past few months took quite a toll on me. I don’t quite know what to write here but I feel like I needed to.

Not to oblige my blogging duties, more like I just want to place my thoughts into reality.

What is really going on here?

I’ve been good… I’ve been so good so why now?

Why take people and things I love away from me… I feel guilty just writing this yet I feel like if I don’t get it out of my system, I might explode!

What if this is all just a big hoax to console me on the subject of death? Heaven and all…

I feel like I’m going crazy. Why oh why…

“Be strong!”

And so everyone expects me to be.

“But what… it’s just a dog? Life goes on? Yadi yada…”

Sob.