The Unwanted Dream

If I tell you my darkest secret, will you keep it for me?

The clinic smelt of fear and death the moment she walked in. It couldn’t have been bigger than a bungalow house but it felt like the end of the corridor would never end. Her own fear was beginning to creep its way out of her pores and she knew soon she’d be a rounded cauldron of terror.

The nurse led her to the bed she would be staying in. She slipped out of her clothes and put on the ugly green string-tied robe. She felt naked and chilled but she was reassured when she saw him sitting there. Maybe he could spend the night by her side, she asked the nurse. The ugly bitch shook her head no and explained that there is a strict policy there would be no overnight visitors. Her pot of terror immediately bubbled over, how could she sleep a wink in this place of death?

When her eyes finally opened, she saw there was no one beside her. There was no sleep. It was almost time for surgery. She grabbed the phone next to her and texted him frantically. You must come now, it is almost time, please be here for me.

The nurse came too soon. A different nurse this time but all too soon she proved just as cold. It was time. Her heart constricted, just where the hell is he! She stumbled reluctantly off the bed and maybe the nurse saw the pools of tears gathered in the young woman’s eyes because she offered a sentence of reassurance.
Why, thank you.

She had to take off her panties now. In the waiting room, she kept looking out for signs of him. Maybe he was caught in morning traffic? Maybe he was already waiting but the nurse kept him out of sight? Maybe he didn’t want this damaged goods after all. Yet this was the most important and scariest day of her life.

When the anesthetic took over and the world began to blur, the last thought in her head was she wished to die with the little boy inside her.

Will I ever wake up from this nightmare, for a girl that’s not even me?
The time was 5:32 in the morning when I reached for my phone.

What a horrible secret for the girl to keep.
And what a horrible world for me to live in.

I do not want to dream another nightmare such as this.
And what do you guys think happened to the boyfriend that never showed up for her?